Well I struggled to get this blog rolling about 10 days ago, what prompted and motivated me was my financial demise. I was let go in early Sept. from a job I only had 3 weeks. I had been on unemployment before that but that is all gone. No more funds or social service help for me, mainly because I am white, 48 and my child is an adult now so the government has little to offer people like me when our lives fall apart. I stupidly thought if I HONESTLY portray my dilemma to the “world” that some very kind caring souls would see my need and donate a small sum, $3 or $5 or maybe even $10 to my cause. I was hoping that through this vehicle called a blog on the Internet highway that it might connect me with a god given solution as I was promted through prayer to try this before I am evicted and living in my car. If that happens, it will be too late for me. No house or address will mean no food stamps, will mean no doctor care or the drugs I must have to keep living a tolerable life so I can work. It is a monstrous catch 22 and I have been caught in this snare a very long time and I am getting too tired dodging all the late fees, extra extra everything I do just because I cannot find people anywhere to give me a chance and let me demonstrate my usefulness.
I mean this last job I had I performed excellently! And I am not bragging. I was told this by our clients and boss. It was the most fun I have ever had. I worked a kid’s train in the mall and boy we had fun. I love children. They make me happy and I feel safe with them. Anyway, I had two disputes with two other vendors in the mall on my time off and for this the Manager of the mall supposedly “ordered” my boss to LET ME GO. I have never heard or seen such a thing in my life. If I did not work at the mall, I could have had all the disputes I wanted, but because I was employed by one of the vendors I am not allowed to be dissatisfied with other vendors no matter how they treat me. That is BULLSHIT. So I was let go, no severence, no nothing. My boss told me he was sorry because I DID A GOOD JOB, but he claimed he had to OBEY THE MALL MANAGER, even though all these choices and decisions were based on personal feelings not on business practices and standards.
I am desperate, it is now 40 days later and I have filled out collectively over 22 applications since then and only been called once for an interview. My landlord is filing eviction on me today and I will have to be out of here in the next 14 days with no money or relatives or friends or ANYTHING AND I CANNOT LET THIS HAPPEN, I HAVE A DOG I LOVE AND A DAUGHTER WHO IS DEPENDING ON ME, WHO LOOKS TO ME TO TEACH HER HOW TO LIVE AND SOLVE HER OWN PROBLEMS.
PLEASE, I AM ON MY KNEES, IF YOU HAVE A GENEROUS HEART AND YOU GIVE TO CHARITY, please consider giving a small amount to me. I think giving money to charity is a noble deed, but many times the money really never impacts those who it is collected for, many times the bulk of the funds are used up by the “uneedy ones who are employed and drawing large salaries” to disperse and direct these charities. Here is another Catch 22, I honestly and sincerely need help, I cannot get any from locally, state or nationally, I cannot get disability. I do not want to sit on my ass feeling sorry for myself, I am willing to work, I am willing to do whatever I can, I just don’t know what that is and I cannot make people take the time to see my cause, most only care about their own. Please if you can, please help me from living in the street, I have no one else to ask. I am asking you to make a small donation. I have made this application through prayer and I feel that many such as you will come to my aid if I am honest and my heart NOT filled with greed. I humbly ask this of all people, through Jesus Christ I pray. God bless us all.
